Monday, February 13, 2012

Things I Do Not Like (A Confession)

Chocolate Ganache Torte, you tempt me not

Do you know those things that everybody else seems to like but for which you just can't cast your vote? Well, in an act of confession, I've decided to offer up a short list of things I do not like (that everybody else seems to like):

1. I do not like playing games. There. I said it. I think this makes me anti-American or, at the very least, a threat to the traditional family. Granted there are a few exceptions to this rule as there are with every rule (Go Cranium!), but by and large I just do not enjoy playing games. It awakens within me the most hideous expression of an otherwise dormant competitor. I do not like to lose, and I boil when I do. I suppose I could force myself to play games in an attempt learn good sportsmanship but really I'm too busy working on my more immediate flaws. If you invite me to play a game with you, I probably will play out of courtesy but please know that I am un-enjoying every minute of it.

2. I do not like chocolate desserts. Candy bars aside, I am not fond of chocolate sweets: chocolate mousse, chocolate torte, or that rich double double back flip chocolate cake that no one can resist. Me? Pass the apple cobbler please.

3. I do not like taking baths. I lay (lie?) there in that delicious hot, bubbly water for about 5 minutes and then begin thinking of 1 million things I would rather be doing. Also I am anti-prune hands, and those wrinkled fingertips are part and parcel of bath taking.

4. I do not like relaxing at tropical locals. I think my aversion to tropical vacations is similar to my bath aversion. I lie (lay?) on the beach for about 5 minutes and then begin thinking of 1 million things I would rather be doing that don't involve fancy umbrella drinks or hang gliding.

I am so curious...are there things you dislike that everyone around you seems to adore?

Thursday, February 9, 2012

He Has Me Transfixed


He has me transfixed.

Transfixed: To pierce with a sharp implement or weapon.

It doesn't require any effort on his part. His mere existence cuts through to the heart of me. His presence requires of me hard things, painful things, transformative things. He is gentle, forgiving, and kind, and yet he demands, in his non demanding way, that I shed the unessential to make room for the essential.

Unessential: ego, being right, avoiding pain, masking fear, pretense

Essential: love

This. This being in love. It hurts in the most exquisite way. I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Friday, January 20, 2012

Offer A 'Holy Yes'


"Say a holy yes to the real things of our life as they exist."-Natalie Goldberg

A 'holy yes'. Not to be confused with 'just yes'. 'Just yes' means that I will endure life with stone-faced stoicism and a hope rooted only in the great hereafter. 'Just yes' means that I speak ill of pain, branding her the ugliest part and parcel of life--an inevitable evil, a cross to bear. 'Just yes' means that with each stripe I bear on earth I expect a reward in heaven: 10 choirs of angels, please. 'Just yes' is suffering the heat of the fire without praising her light.

But a 'holy yes'--A 'holy yes' means that I will bury my feet in the soil, rooted in the here and now, tilting my head to the sky in gratitude; I will make room for the sublime and the unsightly, recognizing that they are often one and the same. A 'holy yes' means that I will see pain for what she is--a glowing ember, a divine heart, a merciful gift disguised as my greatest fear. A 'holy yes' means "Thank you God. For everything. Even the shadows. I am made light." A 'holy yes' is learning slowly, ever slowly, to appreciate pain's sharp blade. What better way to carve a space in my heart for joy to grow?

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Happy Birthday, CHB!


For those of you who don't know what CHB stands for, a friendly definition: 

CHB, (n), [see aych bee]
1. Curly Haired Boy
2. Calm Handsome Beloved
3. Curious Hopeful Brave
4. Creative Hilarious Blessed
5. Clever Heavenly Blue-eyed
6. Confident Helpful Benevolent
7. Cool Happy Blissful
8. Charming Honorable Bright

Happy Birthday, CHB. You make my heart sing.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Ring In The New Year: Bring Forth What You Love

Long exposure photographs of fireflies in Japan via This is Colossal

I haven't written in such a long time. My brain feels a little bit creaky and my words a little melted around the edges. Can you guess what one of my New Year's Resolutions is? You are correct! Write more! I know many people think the idea of crafting resolutions for the new year is silly. Why dedicate some arbitrary day to goals too slippery to keep? Well, I say, why not? Why not choose one day and bless it with your faith--a faith that you will be just a little bit better this swing around the sun? I love the symbolism of the New Year. We are submerged in the darkest, coldest part of the season (at least in Utah); in that darkness we are inclined to curl up inside of ourselves, dig around for a bit, and then bring forth what we love and what we would love more of.

Because I am an organizational freakshow (I say that lovingly), I made a spreadsheet with all of my resolutions and divided them into categories (e.g. Health, Creativity, Spirituality, etc.) Here are some of my favorite resolutions in no fancy or significant order:

1. Get married to CHB (I know I said these were in no particular order, but this definitely belongs in the #1 slot)

2. Improve my driving skillz. This includes re-learning how to parallel park and not saying swears in the car when I'm stuck behind slow drivers, the majority of whom are really sweet grandmas on their way to visiting teaching.

3. Get on the Downton Abbey fast track. I'm way behind on this trend. I haven't even seen one episode yet but I already know I love the show.

4. Always have fresh flowers in my home. I received some Orchids for Christmas, and my spirit skipped ten notches forward. What miracles flora can fashion for us!

5. Make a new meal every Sunday--I now have a cache of enviable cook books thanks to the matriarchs in my life. This is a spiritual endeavor for me; I want to learn more about feeding my body and the bodies of those I love with healthy food and honest conversation. I want to experience more of my eating and my cooking as communion with the earth, my family, and the Divine. 

6. Try not to get addicted to Pinterest. Oops! Too late!

7. Articulate my gratitude daily. Perhaps I will do this on my blog. Perhaps my journal. Perhaps in my evening assembly with God. Regardless, I don't want to forget how deeply blessed it is to be human.

I think that's enough for tonight. If I can accomplish one of these resolutions by the end of the year, I will be happy. Progress is slow and sweet. How do you feel about making resolutions for the new year?

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Happy New Year!


I hope you're having as much FUN as we are!

Monday, December 5, 2011

Tickled and Thrilled

Photo courtesy of Mark Laita

This week I am tickled and thrilled by the existence of...

Mark Laita's Photography
Feathered Feast
For The
Eyes

Lemon Trees
The Prettiest
Drops Of
Lemon And Green

Planet Fitness
Tootsie Rolls
All You Can Eat Pizza
No Grunting!

A Very She & Him Christmas
Zooey
Croons
Christmas